SO THERE WAS NO REAL END. NO CONCLUSION. THE MOMENT'S PASSED.
AND SOME NIGHTS, IN BED, I FEEL MY HEART BEATING / PUMPING BLOOD / HITTING AGAINST MY TEMPLES RELENTLESSLY.
EVERY BEAT A FLASH / A REGRET / A PAINFUL MEMORY / A DESIRE I WISH I DIDN'T NOT FEEL.
AND IF ONE DAY, AFTER MONTHS OR EVEN YEARS
I SEE HER AGAIN, AT AN EVENT, IN THE STREET WITH HER FRIEND
WHEN I WALK BY HER HOUSE ON MY WAY TO THE MALL
IF I SPEAK TO HER, I WON'T LET ANYTHING SHOW / MY HEARTBEAT SPEEDS UP / I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY
BUT I CAN'T REVEAL ANYTHING. I HAVE NO RIGHT TO IMPOSE
SO I DRINK, HOPING IT WILL QUIET MY THOUGHTS
TO NO AVAIL. I KEEP PRETENDING EVERYTHING'S FINE.
AND I KEEP DRINKING AT EVERY PARTY I GET TO GO TO
- THESE PARTIES WHERE SHE DOESN'T SHOW UP ANYMORE.
AND IF FINALLY I FALL ASLEEP WITHOUT NOTICING
AND IF THE THOUGHTS STOP FOR A FEW HOURS
- WILL I HAVE SIMPLY FORGOTTEN THAT I KEPT HURTING DURING THIS DRUNKEN ABSENCE?
ANYWAY, IT WILL COME BACK / THIS FEELING
IT HAS TO STOP AND THERE AREN'T MANY SOLUTIONS... |
