As soon as he discovers that I'm lying

NOT NORMAL ?!

WHO CARES IF WE LOVE EACH OTHER ?!

If only it was not one-sided...

His feelings will just vanish

He'll never be able to bear all of it... Accept Fayi, Forgive my lies, go out openly with me, who's a male too.

That's impossible. I don't want to make the same mistake twice

I'd rather hurt him once and for all