BDs, mangas, communauté !

I’m feeling much better today. Yesterday was the worst I’d felt in years, not only because of my writing confidence, but with the addition of poorly timed external troubles. I think many things all fell together at the same time and exacerbated one another. 

I knew at the time that crumpling up into a sad ball and withdrawing because of one person’s honest opinion was very unprofessional and even fairly childish, but I honestly couldn’t help it. My confidence in writing has always been fragile, as I’ve had no mentors to guide me or give me feedback the way I have in art. My matter-of-fact style was something I was proud of and being hit with the realization that it’s undesirable was crippling in an entirely overdramatic, overreactive way.

But, my inbox filled with messages and notes, and even drawings, of you guys telling me to keep going. I’m still going through and answering all of them, but I want you to know that every one of them really helped me out. Tyler-quinn sent me the above message (well, that’s a part of it) with a quote from Mark Twain. At first, I didn’t think it was a real quote, and was simply written for me as encouragement, but a google search told me otherwise. I loved his work when I was younger and it made me realize that many of my favorite authors don’t write in overly descriptive prose. And not everyone likes my favorite authors. It was really hard for me to believe that the way I do things is, in fact, “okay,” but this really helped. 

So, thanks guys, for sending me such thoughtful notes and thinking of me. I’ll be putting the story back up today when I’m more awake. You’re all amazing and, as always, I love you.